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Jul. 9th, 2009 | 12:40 pm
I can't even feel anger anymore. just pain and more pain
realization of how fast you are willingly discarded. Here, there, everywhere.
realization of how fast you are willingly discarded. Here, there, everywhere.
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Jul. 9th, 2009 | 10:08 am
I'm tired. so tired i might just be sick.
i haven't felt like this in a long, long time: but i really wish i could end it all now.
At least you have him. i have no one. and i don't think i'll ever have anyone
not anyone... physical. God i honestly wish you would materalize in front of me right now
it's so hard to know and understand and feel and yet not be able to see.
because i'm really losing this. Fast
i haven't felt like this in a long, long time: but i really wish i could end it all now.
At least you have him. i have no one. and i don't think i'll ever have anyone
not anyone... physical. God i honestly wish you would materalize in front of me right now
it's so hard to know and understand and feel and yet not be able to see.
because i'm really losing this. Fast
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Jul. 7th, 2009 | 05:24 am
so terribly alone.
Good bye
Good bye
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jess's place
Jul. 6th, 2009 | 09:27 am
Wow today was fun! :) Finally met people who were not my sister or mother. Really good change of environment. It is really hard to breathe in a house that are solely women. The bitchiness is intolerable sometimes so today was a really good change ;) and I enjoyed every moment of it!! Met up with Tabs at Serene at 2ish after hearing about Michelle's camera fiasco. so nice talking to tabs again :) Tabs is really one of these people who you can be really frank with, and what's best is that she is very practical. I've found it very hard to connect with idealists aka dreamers. So yeah so awesome seeing her again!! Talked a lot about life in the states and heard about how crappy and shitty the JC system is. (omg seriously 6 pages per history essay?) plus the attitude is so... so, different.
Thank God i'm not in JC.
so we went over to Jess's place and hung out a lot and just talked. it was so nice to catch up and listen to stories and share them all over again. I really love talking to my friends more than anything else. Oh yeah, lunch was hotdogs and brownies and cheese toast. :) Haha it was really good though... just chatting. We talked for 2 hours or so, and then Tabs had to leave to meet her aunt. ZM had to record her chinese LMS thingy, so we moved to Jess's study and Jess has like 2 comps in one room, and I was using the iMac and omg i was playing JJ Lin's Bu Chao Bu Yong Hua Qian and Big Bang's Gara Gara GO! And hahaha after a while they kept humming bu chao bu yong hua qian aahahaha they wanted to smack me for putting it into their heads in the first place heh.
We took a whole bunch of pictures (messed with Photo booth), took more pictures (Jess taught me the skill of continuous shots... aka never make the same face twice!!), compared the flexibility of our thumbs and got scolded for being mean kidz (we're not mean!!!) K maybe just tan zhen mean k. OH YES THEY TAUGHT ME THE HOW ABOUT SLANG TOO. HOW ABOUT I DON'T USE IT. HOW ABOUT NO. HOW ABOUT YOU SHUT UP. HOW ABOUT K. HOW ABOUT YOU CLOSE THE DOOR. haha zomg it's so addictive. i will not conform(!!!)
Left at 10pm haha it was hella late. They have school tmr oopz :(
I'm really tired. SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!
Thank God i'm not in JC.
so we went over to Jess's place and hung out a lot and just talked. it was so nice to catch up and listen to stories and share them all over again. I really love talking to my friends more than anything else. Oh yeah, lunch was hotdogs and brownies and cheese toast. :) Haha it was really good though... just chatting. We talked for 2 hours or so, and then Tabs had to leave to meet her aunt. ZM had to record her chinese LMS thingy, so we moved to Jess's study and Jess has like 2 comps in one room, and I was using the iMac and omg i was playing JJ Lin's Bu Chao Bu Yong Hua Qian and Big Bang's Gara Gara GO! And hahaha after a while they kept humming bu chao bu yong hua qian aahahaha they wanted to smack me for putting it into their heads in the first place heh.
We took a whole bunch of pictures (messed with Photo booth), took more pictures (Jess taught me the skill of continuous shots... aka never make the same face twice!!), compared the flexibility of our thumbs and got scolded for being mean kidz (we're not mean!!!) K maybe just tan zhen mean k. OH YES THEY TAUGHT ME THE HOW ABOUT SLANG TOO. HOW ABOUT I DON'T USE IT. HOW ABOUT NO. HOW ABOUT YOU SHUT UP. HOW ABOUT K. HOW ABOUT YOU CLOSE THE DOOR. haha zomg it's so addictive. i will not conform(!!!)
Left at 10pm haha it was hella late. They have school tmr oopz :(
I'm really tired. SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!
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HECK YEAH
Jul. 5th, 2009 | 12:59 am
I LOVE YOU SHINJI. GO VAIZARDS!